There is a layer of yourself that has never been fully met. You have done the work, developed real self awareness, sat with difficult truths, and invested in your own becoming. You have built a life that functions, and in many ways a life that looks whole from the outside.
And still something persists beneath it, a private complexity that insight alone has not shifted, material that returns in cycles regardless of what you understand about it. Desire, intensity, or inner conflict that has never had a place where it can be fully met.
What lives here does not respond to more analysis, technique, or self improvement. It responds to presence, a space that does not recoil, reduce, or rush what is moving before it has been fully met. What has remained in the dark is asking to be met and this is where it happens.
Introduce
I am Rhodah
I am Rhoda Harriet Khataba, and I work at the intersection of shadow, erotic energy, nervous system intelligence, and ancestral memory. My work restores contact with what has been disowned in the body, psyche, and relational field, and brings it back into conscious integration as power, clarity, and embodied truth.
I work in the territories most people learn to avoid. Erotic energy that has been suppressed, shadow that has been moralised, rage without language, desire that was never safely met, and the parts of the self that split in order to belong. Nothing in a human being is treated as excess here. Everything is treated as intelligence.
I spent years in positions of leadership working with ministers, executives, founders, senior leaders, institutions, and government stakeholders globally, while simultaneously serving in spiritual leadership with responsibility for ministers and communities across multiple regions of the world.
These experiences gave me an intimate understanding of what human beings reveal and conceal when power, visibility, desire and identity converge. The environments were different but the underlying dynamics were often remarkably similar.
The ability to perceive those underlying dynamics did not begin in those environments. I come from a lineage of seers and healers in Nairobi. That inheritance informs how I perceive what is present in the room and how I listen for what sits beneath what is being spoken. The sight arrived before the certifications and the certifications gave it precision.
My training spans somatic practice, tantric sexuality, conscious kink, polyvagal informed work, shadow integration, womb medicine, and the psychology of gender and sexuality. Training did not create the way I work. It gave language, structure, and greater precision to capacities that were already present. What you are coming for is the capacity to be met fully in what you have most needed to hide.
Dark Eros
There is a charge in you that has never been met without judgement or the impulse to minimise it. The hidden fantasy, suppressed or played out, that leaves shame in its wake. The compulsion you cannot reason your way out of. The desire that has no place in a life built around a successful career and a self that knows better, and yet it remains.
This is the territory where sexuality, power, shame, and what has gone unspoken converge, where understanding reaches its limit and something deeper begins to emerge. Dark Eros works directly in this territory, meeting whatever is ready to reveal itself.
The psyche unfolds in layers and the work follows, moving through what is ready to emerge at the pace your system allows. As material surfaces we work with it through the body, the nervous system, the relational field, and the symbolic and erotic dimensions of what is present.
Some sessions will feel quiet and revelatory while others may feel confrontational, destabilising, or unexpectedly liberating. What is ready to be seen becomes visible, what is ready to move begins to move, and what has been exiled can finally be met.
Not everything that stirs is wound. Some of it is direction. What you have been most ashamed of is the precise location of what has been suppressed.
Who This is for
You have done significant work on yourself and carry a level of self-awareness that most spaces around you have not been able to meet, and yet certain things persist.
You find yourself returning to the same patterns in intimacy regardless of what you understand about them, and there are desires or fantasies you have kept hidden. Something rises in you in certain moments, in private and in the body. You manage it, contain it, move past it, and still it resurfaces, because it does not resolve in isolation or shift through insight alone.
Alongside that is what has never been fully claimed, the pleasure that has felt too revealing to admit to, the authority you can feel in your body but have never quite allowed yourself to fully inhabit.
Your Complete Experience
What is most suppressed and what has never been fully claimed both have a place here. The session follows what is most alive in you at that time, whether that is what has been hidden or what has been waiting to be inhabited at full scale.
One 90 minute Dark Eros session devoted entirely to what is most alive, hidden, or ready to move within you at that time.
One 45 minute integration call two weeks after the session to meet what has continued unfolding since we worked.
Email access throughout the month as a contained space for what emerges between and after sessions.
Investment: £8,000 Payment plans are available and discussed during the application process.
Inner Sanctum
You have already begun to sense what lives beneath the surface of the life you have constructed. You have done work before, something may already have shifted, cracked open, or been witnessed, and yet there are places in you that remain unmet. Parts of your desire, power, erotic life, and inner world that have never quite been expressed, something you can feel without fully being able to meet.
Something in you has been waiting for a steady presence and a space large enough to hold you, and Inner Sanctum is that space.
What unfolds over time rarely arrives all at once. You may notice it first in the body, in the way you move through yourself between sessions with less contraction against your own experience and a greater capacity to remain present with what is there.
What does not surface in one moment becomes available in another through being met again and again. There are aspects that only reveal themselves once trust has been built in the body. You may find yourself returning to something that once carried charge, urgency, or resistance and discovering it no longer has the same hold.
As we work together what your system needs becomes clearer and the work adapts to meet it. This process takes its shape from you, from what emerges, what your body signals, and the texture of what you carry. Over time there is a growing ease in being seen and known.
Who This Is For
You are not new to looking inward, and the level of self-awareness you carry is not something most spaces around you have been able to meet.
And yet something persists beneath all of it. Patterns that have not shifted despite your understanding of them. Desires that return regardless of what you know. An inner life that is richer, stranger, and more complex than anything you have yet found a home for.
You understand that what you are carrying has roots, and that following those roots requires time, sustained presence, and a quality of relational continuity that most spaces simply cannot offer.
You are ready to be known over time, to let the work move through you across months, and to give the full arc of your own transformation the space it has always required.
What Becomes Possible
The changes that come from this work are not always the ones that were anticipated, and they tend to reach further than expected.
People often arrive focused on something specific. A pattern in relationships. A creative block. A sense of standing at a threshold they cannot cross. What shifts is more fundamental than the presenting concern. The way they inhabit their body, the quality of their decisions, and the presence they bring into relationships, work, and the parts of life that matter most to them.
What was previously running as compulsion becomes something that can be seen and related to consciously, which changes its hold entirely. Energy that was bound up in suppression begins to return, into creative output that has momentum, into thinking that is clearer and no longer filtered, into desire that has direction rather than only charge.
Relationships change because the person inside them has changed. Some structures fall away naturally. Others deepen because contact is no longer filtered through what must remain hidden. People begin saying what they would previously have withheld, wanting what they would previously have edited out, and discovering that being fully known does not carry the cost they once assumed.
In work and leadership this shows up as a different quality of authority, one that does not require maintenance because it is no longer performed. Decisions become cleaner. Creative capacity that was previously entangled becomes available again.
What returns is not an improved version of yourself. It is what was always there, now accessible again.
Inside the Field
Some material moves quickly. Other material requires time, trust, and the accumulation of genuine relational safety before the body will allow it to surface. The sustained field is what makes both possible. The shadow that has been held for decades and the expansion that has never had a large enough space to be fully inhabited both need more than a single meeting to move through their full arc.
Two full sessions per month, each devoted to what is most alive, charged, or ready to move at that time.
A 15 minute check-in call available between sessions to hold the thread of what is continuing to unfold.
Email access throughout as a space for what surfaces between sessions.
The work begins with a three month commitment. After the initial three months it continues month by month for those who choose to extend, up to twelve months.
Investment: £10,000 per month
Payment plans are available and discussed during the application process.
Client Love
“The power I was hiding was the same power I needed to build my life. I came to this work carrying shame and conditioning that made me believe my desires were something to be controlled or hidden. After working with Rhoda I finally understand: the desires were never the problem. Hiding them was. I launched the work I had been too afraid to start. I speak my truth without apologising.”
R., 41, Spiritual Teacher
“I came to this work stuck. My business had stalled, ideas had stopped flowing, and I was at an impasse in my marriage that I had been circling for years without resolution. What I did not expect was how directly the work touched the root of all of it. Something shifted in me that I cannot fully explain intellectually, but the effects were immediate and concrete. The ideas began flowing again. I made a decision about my marriage I had been unable to make for years and I chose myself. This kind of work moved through every area of my life. All of it.”
D., Executive
“Before this work I did not realise how much energy I was spending compensating for something I could not name. I showed up in rooms performing a version of confidence that was exhausting to maintain. After working with Rhoda something settled in me. I stopped needing to dominate or overperform to feel secure. The confidence I have now does not require an audience. It is simply there.”
M., Senior Leader
“I came for leadership strategy. What I found was that everything I was looking for was already present in material I had never thought to examine. The work helped me read what was already there. I am more certain of my direction and more integrated in how I move than I have ever been.”
Name withheld by request, Senior Leader
“I run multiple companies. I have always been the one in control. I came to this work thinking I knew what I needed. What emerged instead was a pattern I had never fully seen. Everything I held externally, in position, in presence, in achievement, I could not hold internally. The power was leaking in ways that were quietly costing me everything that mattered. The work has been about learning to contain what I carry. Not manage it. Contain it. The difference is significant and I am still moving through it.”
Name withheld by request, Senior Leader
Application Note
Both offerings are available to a small number of people at any one time.
Every application is reviewed personally. If the work is aligned for where you are, you will receive details and next steps within two to three days.